F grade

I wake up at around 9am at the morning today interrupted by the ringtone of my mobile.It was ravi who called me for the sessions i.e inter iit sessions.So i took my breakfast,didn't even bothered to brush my teeth or wash my face and went up for the sessions.I reached the tennis court within 20 min after I got up only to find it empty.Well there nothing new to find it empty as whenever Ravi calls me up for the sessions it would be me turning up early.So as usual I waited for him for around 10 mins,still didn't reach,I called him up...ring ring........peee peee...again i tried him up...still no response..then i started to feel little impatience so I send him a SMS asking him to reached the court at the earlist(wondering if he would read the message though he didn'tpick up the phone)...still no respone...again i send him a message informing that I have left the court...then I did a bit of walk at the football and athlete ground then I came back at the hostel...

After coming back to my hostel,I changed my clothes and headed towards my department to meet Dr.Saith Sir to know about my DBMS grade......Reached the dept and I asked the security if Dr. Sajith was in his room,he said he had not seen him since morning.Still, I went to his room to confirm.Yea his room was locked.Then I come back to my room.It was 10.30 am then.As my exam ended just 2 says back I had no any studies to do,so I switched on my laptop and start watching Smallville....when I completed watching it was already 12.05pm,and I had to meet Raka bhaiya at 12.00pm so took my cycle key(actually that's not my cycle its deepak GOBS) and headed towards Kameng hostel.When I reahed his room, he was not in his room (though his room was unlock).But I meet Om there .Om Prakash Meens better known as OP.This guy is some what amazing ,amazing because he has lot of hidden talent in him.Just by looking at him you gone feel he is somewhat a hero type of a guy...but when you start knowing him better u gona fell he just the opposite of that.After talking with Om for few minutes he call up Lee,actually he full name is Lee Chang(name changed).He is another amazing kind of creature,his amazingness very much different then that of Om.He started his academic semester with a bang cpi of 7.91.(cpi of 7.9 is really good if not for others atleast for me)then suddenly by 2nd year he started to bunk classes and avoid going labs. Well I chatted with these amazing guys for few minutes and then had our lunch together.There I meet Abhishek.To say anything about him would be less,very less ...well he a 9 pointer of our dept and not just a 9 pointer also he has really completed huge huge projects under many big profs.There Abhishek told me that Dr.Sajith sir is going to hang up the grade sheet within few hours.From this time onwards my heart started to beat harder and harder.So I ate up my food as fast as possible and headed towards my dept.When I reached there ,no any grade sheet were hung in any of the notice board.So I check up his office,it was locked.Then I went up to the HOD office.Yea he was there.....so I opened up his office and ask "May a coming Sir",he said "yes",then i asked "can i know my database garde?" he responded "i m going to put up in the notice board any way whats our roll no?",i said"its 108 sir" then words or word he said after.....was something that hit me even more than the bullet of the snifer....Really, "you got F" was what he responded....its was the first time i got a F grade in any subject....lets me tell you honestly incase you have never got any F grade.....the feeling of getting this grade is really really BAD.You gone sometime say that "I better be shot then get this grade".I really could not control my emotions and my tear drop started to fall down.Then I discuss with sir on what went wrong with the paper with my eyes filled with tear.Then I ask him if there is any possibility that i can rewrite the exams.No chance was what he responded......

As I approach toward my hostel walking along my Gaurav,still i could not hold up my tears ,i tried hard not to,but i couldnot....after i reached my room I locked my self up in my room i started to ask whats wrong with my life,how can i correct my life,how can i make my life much better.how can i?till now no answers.....

five point six

how does it make u feel when u work so hard 4 something & later u don't achieve it?

how does it make u feel when u dream abt something for so long and later u find that u r some distance short?

u know...u start to doubt urself...
u start to ask urself ...m i not putting my best effort
m i not concentrating on my work...
or just that m unlucky ...............
NO, m not the person who believes in luck..

whatever be the result i don't care
cause i know who m i?
i know i got the capability ,i got the energy,i got the talent,no matter what..
every time i fall down i m going stand up, stand up and m going to be stronger and stronger than ever.................

In memory -Kokrajhar my home town

Today, I fell like opening my heart and express my feeling with u guys about my home place.I live in a town called KOKRAJHAR which most of my friends used to asked where its located.This place is unknown by many people staying outside the nort-east and if someone knows it, knows it for all for the ill place that it was some years back.............recalling those days makes me shiver till now........i can still fell those heart beat .........

Those days were the hardest days of my life.............i know i was very young at that time,still everything is crystal clear till today and will remain forever. I can recall that around 4 to 5 people were shot dead some distance from my house.Every few days gap, i could hear the gun shots .It seems as if they were going with a fixed rate of person to be killed in their mind.At that time I used to ask myself why were they killing their own brothers?why?

Everyday, I use to pray to the GOD to save my family from such terror.Every time my father gets late in entering home, me and my mother's heart beat used to get doubled.Those days my studies were worst affected as we were bound to have food early and sleep by 8 pm in the evening.Those nights, we couldn't sleep at bed, we used to sleep in the ground with sand bags covering us inorder to block the bullets if fired.


Though, today it has stoped , i use to ask why? Why did they kill those innocent people what were their faults? Were they kill just to make the concern people hear their demands?If so, then is it the right way?

Even though these terror had ended in my place(kokrajhar),such terror still exist in assam ,yea i know what are u thinking???